Pastel Outfit/I got fat!

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Pastel goth is endlessly fascinating to me right now for some reason. I’m definitely seeing elements of it in my shopping cart and outfits and hair.

I’ve been receiving comments on all my social media about how fat I’ve gotten. I’m not going to lie, it hurts my feelings. That’s not to say that I am damaged by it or have a shred of respect for the mean people who make those comments. It just makes me sort of sad because it brings up thoughts I’ve already had during my current struggle with my weight. But I am strong enough to not let it get to me on a personal or deep level.

I know I’m not skinny any more. But that doesn’t make me less cool, less of a person, or less beautiful.

Gothic Lolita/French Children

My main inspiration for clothing recently has been gothic lolita style and that of little French girls.

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The look is so polished and youthful, and, though maybe it’s just me, a little dark? Maybe I just think that because little kids are creepy. In those ways, gothic lolita is very similar, but less simple, more embellished.

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Here’s an outfit that was a result of these sources of inspiration.

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Kinderwhore is basically 90s Courtney Love.

“Kinderwhore was an image used by a handful of mostly female grunge bands in the US during the early to mid 1990s.

The kinderwhore look consisted of torn, ripped tight or low-cut babydoll dresses or nighties, heavy makeup, and leather boots or Mary–Jane shoes of various colors.” -Wikipedia

Reminds me of Miu Miu s/s 2008…

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And this picture of Courtney with Hole:

kinderwhoreIn my last post I mentioned that I’m into goth fashion but I’d also love to have my personal style be something cuter and *less* sophisticated than traditional goth. I feel like this is something I could rock. Shorter skirts, higher necklines. I’m already obsessed with knee-high socks and stockings.

Here’s one kinderwhore-inspired outfit I pulled together…

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And yes, I gained some weight.

Valentino Spring 2014 Coture

Giuseppe Verdi’s score was embroidered on the skirt of a parchment-colored tulle dress. After that, Chiuri explained, “we wanted to describe the character of each [opera’s] protagonist in a primordial way.”


Wow this is going to be eXcItInGgg

What a cool idea!

And there are tons of animals- snakes, peacocks- really breathtaking.

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“a satin tiger practically pounced off the skirt of the finale dress”


See the slideshow here:

I thought this show was really really beautiful and interesting and I don’t have much else to say about it. I just felt the need to share because this one stuck out to me while I was doing my usual browsing. I hope you guys like it as much as I do.

Goth Fashion

I am SO into the gothic subculture these days, especially re:fashion. I’ve been wearing mostly black for a couple years now, but only in the past six months or so have I discovered goth, different variations of it, and come to love it.

I see a lot of punk/goth overlap in the traditional deathrock style:

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Sebastian Columbine is one of my favorite modern goth icons and I look up to her immensely.

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I feel similarly about KazLovesBats:

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I personally am more into cutesy, borderline-lolita gothic styles, which is what makes me the biggest poseur ever. I love pastel goth, which is highly frowned upon in the gothic community, just because I love cute things and wide eyes and softness. I love the dark element of goth, but not so much the harshness. Gothic Lolita is more my scene but I’m not rich or talented enough to get or make those clothes.

A common outfit for me these days is a black band tee shirt with fishnets underneath on my arms, spiked bracelets, a flouncy black circle skirt with a petticoat, striped stockings, and combat boots.

I recently ordered some fuzzy black legwarmers to put over my boots- I think that will really add that cutesy element that I love. I also bought black bloomers (the poofy kind, not the lacey kind) which I’ve been wearing as shorts.

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